"It means something. You mean something." by Riley Nix [Nov. 18, 2009]

It means something.
Everything I do means something.
Actions have secret meanings, like codes.
I guess for now I can't share that with you.
But the clock is ticking on me,
I wanna show love like never before.
I want to give my all.
More than I've ever given.
I sat there today on the bench
Just screaming in my head,
Fighting with myself.
I was trying, trying so hard
Trying to make myself leave.
I actually told myself I was just bothering you.
And I needed to leave and not bother you, again.
Staying was the best thing- like I knew it would be.
That's why I never got up.
I couldn't get up, I just couldn't.
I couldn't leave you like that.
I never want to leave you like that.
I never want to be that way to you.

"Essay" by Riley Nix [written Oct. 28, 2009]

I'm just so frustrated.
This makes me feel dumb.
Why do words not work right on this?
One simple essay,
One simple grade.
This not so simple situation of sury and shame.
Blame- the art of the game, perpetuates.
I could blame it on anything.
And still not know the truth.
Really, why must I feel so out of control?
Frustration. Heartrate. Blood pressure. Tears.
I'm cold, blue, empty from you.
You, that is a personified thing,
I angst you, essay,
With all of my heart.
Please, go and leave me in this world
To die all alone with pen and paper in hand-
I am consumed.

"A Journey Awaits" by Riley Nix [written Nov. 5, 2009]

A journey awaits you, my friend.
You don't have to turn the page
Or even give in to let it begin.
Life kind of blends all together
So sometimes where and when
just don't seem to stick out.
Life takes you along for the ride,
So grab your camera and pack a lunch.
For now just let the wind lead the way.
or what ever "it" is leading your parade.
Everything is going to happen
when it's all supposed to happen.
All I know is that we're all going to be ok.

"The Other Day" a song by Riley Nix [written Aug 08 - Nov 09]

I met you just the other day but
Now we’re standing here on your wedding day
I can’t believe how much we know
And there’s still more for life to show

Look at this your kids are two
Yeah -the twins- I love them too
It’s crazy and loud when they’re awake
They can make the house shake and shake

I always did think fondly of you
Now I’m pretty sure you know this too
What I thought of you, still remains
But now this life gave us change

Not just a change in you or me
Or any way that we can see
Our spot in heaven has been reserved
Though not because we deserved

Some ask how life can be so sweet
Well because of God I did meet
O Praise Him I sang in church tonight
Faith in Him makes me feel outta sight

Well, by now we met a few years ago
Life gave me the chance to watch you grow

I met these people just the other day
Now many years have passed away
It’s strange how fast we can get along
When we come in here and sing a song