advice...in short supply or just overlooked?

good advice is hard to get dont get to bogged down when you find someone who can give the old college try, been there done that, you aint seen nothing yet, top notch advice, TAKE IT! dont lose what you have right in front of you just because you are too shy to get it for yourself.

"dont grow up too fast they said"

honestly its not about staying a kid;
its about growing up and learning new things,
the good and the bad because there is so much of both,
and learning how to deal with it, and at the sametime being able to stay a kid in the sense that you can be carefree at times and have fun and be goofy and silly,
and thats a really difficult balance.
because if you try not to grow up then you fall behind,
and if you're too serious and take on too much then you lose out.

?press play??

dear carlotte,

please oh please
i wish it was summer
why cant it be summer
these things that happen just make me wanna scream
i hate myself for not being able to run to the rescue
i hate that i cant even give you a hug
or be there to wipe a tear
if i was in college i would have left to come save you forever ago
i hate being stuck to a friendship behind a cold heartless computer screen
this makes me so mad
and even bitterly sad
*sigh*
but yet all i have to look forward to is another day where i have to smile
and i wont even be able to smile and meant if i so much as think of you
how and why did our lives end up this way?
and just as you say most people wont care enough to open this or read it
and if they do they wont care nor know who i'm talking about
if they read it all they will just question to see who you are
but not care any more once i tell them your sweet name
where do we go from here
how can we go from here
here's to us and that
we may wake up one day and finally be together
because then i'm never going to let you go
until that day i will reach for you
when the light goes out and you see nothing
dont go back into your hole
stick your arms out and i will be there to get you
dont give up.

love,
riley

i want something more...

i want something more than this and you really just dont know how i feel about this or anything. but this is selfish of me. i know it and nothing you say will change that. i cant stand this because i'm drawn to complete seperate and opposite ways when i think of you. but exactly what i am i cant do what i would because i'm afraid of hurting anyone, especially you. what am i to do but live every day anyway it's all i can do. i just dont want to wake up everyday and be sad because i'm without you...

dearly beloved

My first glance of you
I think I forgot to breathe
I never knew who you were but
You’re smile just made me stir

My heart, it skipped a beat
You’re something I can’t defeat
I even jumped inside with glee
Because you mean that much to me

Every minute I sit with you
It makes life a little less blue
Your color, it makes my day
I can’t believe I’m gonna say

My heart, it skipped a beat
You’re something I can’t defeat
I even jumped inside with glee
Because you mean that much to me

I hope you know the joy you bring
Sometimes all I wanna do is sing
If you ask you’ll know it’s not just me
Just take a look it’s quite easy to see

My heart, it skipped a beat
You’re something I can’t defeat
I even jumped inside with glee
Because you mean that much to me

You don’t think there’s much to say about you
But let me tell you now that’s definitely not true
You make things seem worthwhile
When other people won’t even smile

My heart, it skipped a beat
You’re something I can’t defeat
I even jumped inside with glee
Because you mean that much to me

ALL QUIET crop and cut peom

The attack has come
Into the horror
Pitch dark
Field with terror

My heart thumps
Tired faces
Tears run down
The blunt edge
Lie in wait
The earth booms
Shattered souls
We are deadened

An explosion sounds
So abruptly
Daggers of flame
The earth bursts

We do not think
We lie helpless
I remain quiet
The dead lie unburied

It is chilly
A dark, deep sleep
The torturing image
My body collapses

Army report: all is quiet

Philippians 3:10

goal one: learn Philippians 3:10 by heart.

“For my determined purpose is that I may know Him, that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His person more strongly and more clearly and that I may in that same way come to know the power flowing out of His resurrection which it exerts over believers, and that I may so share in His sufferings to be continually transformed in spirit into his likeness even to his death.”