i want something more...

i want something more than this and you really just dont know how i feel about this or anything. but this is selfish of me. i know it and nothing you say will change that. i cant stand this because i'm drawn to complete seperate and opposite ways when i think of you. but exactly what i am i cant do what i would because i'm afraid of hurting anyone, especially you. what am i to do but live every day anyway it's all i can do. i just dont want to wake up everyday and be sad because i'm without you...